Dear baby,
Today mommy and daddy got to see who you are! I was so nervous. I always get nervous before a scan, worried that they will find something wrong. But that’s just me, I guess. There was nothing to be nervous about! I had a glass of orange juice beforehand, because I heard it makes for wiggly babies. And boy were you wiggly! I kept laughing because we could see you stretching and kicking and rolling around in there. We got to see your heart and your brain and all the little parts of you… My favorite was your little knees and your spine and ribs. So sweet. I’ll get to tickle them so soon!
The ultrasound tech asked if we wanted to know if you were going to be a girl or a boy. Of course we did! Mommy has no patience for waiting! So she looked and we all held our breath… and we found out that you are going to be our son. Mommy and daddy held hands and we just laughed! I might have cried a little bit, too. I almost want to cry again, remembering. I couldn’t stop grinning the biggest smile. When I could finally look away from the screen, I saw that daddy couldn’t stop smiling either. Your daddy is so excited for you.
I’m so happy. We get to meet you in just about 5 months.
Love,
Mommy
Size of babe: Weighs 7 oz and about the length of an iPhone!
Maternity Clothes: Wearing maternity jeans every day, but I think I’m going to switch to summer dresses very soon! It’s too hot for pants!
Gender: It’s a boy! I’m so happy, I cried a little. My son. I’m having a son.
Nursery: Well, now that I know you’re a boy, I can start thinking of things! Maybe dinosaurs!
Sleep: We’re staying in a friend’s guest room until we close on our new home (Wednesday!!) so sleep has been hard to come by. I just don’t sleep well in places that aren’t home, you know?
What I miss: Still coffee. I love coffee. I’ve been able to have the occasional lightly caffeinated drink, but I really miss just a cup of bold tasting hot black coffee.
Best moment this week: Our scan today. We’re having a son. I keep thinking of watching him toddle around after my husband in the yard with his little bubble mower, or needing scraped knees patched up after falling from a skateboard. I’m so excited about having a little boy.
Worst moment this week: I had a horrible appointment last time, with a horrible doctor. It was honestly so bad that I’m thinking of complaining about her to the medical board and the practice she works with. But because of this horrible visit, I’ve been having lots of problems with my self-esteem and stuff. And I’ve been having trouble with my eating habits. I feel like I’m having borderline-eating-disorder thoughts, and that’s not healthy when I’m trying to grow a baby. I’m trying to work myself out of it, and I’m sure it’ll get better once we’re in the new house and can cook ourselves instead of eating out most meals… it’s been hard, though. Being pregnant is hard in ways that I wouldn’t even have considered.
Looking forward to: Telling my parents that it’s a boy! My mom gets home from Korea tonight, so I’m waiting to tell them both at the same time. I’m so excited.
Cravings: Fresh things. Salad. Oh, and raw cucumbers or raw bell peppers. Oooh, and fresh watermelon omg. And strawberries. I love being pregnant in the summer! (Remind me of this when I’m huge and it’s 100 degrees outside…)
Symptoms: None, really. Just some weight gain. And bigger boobs. The norm. :)
Workouts: I’m going to get a membership to the YMCA, I think. They have a pool, and I’m sure I’m going to need it later on when I’m hot and heavy and just want to be outside!
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